I've just looked through my old diaries :>
Ha-ha-a-a~~ So cute, so childish, so naive and funny ^____^

Finally, the winter is over! And though it's still cold outdoors, i'm happy^^
Got a good friend named Vlad~
I hope tomorrow Himi-chan will go shopping with mee~ i need some black high-boots, bright shirt and bright scarf :>
Returning to my kawaii bright style as it becomes warmer and warmer hehe^^
8-bit music is my love <3
Dammit 2GB of memory on mp3-player no more enough for me >.<" Deleting old music~
Downloading new chiptunes and 8bit :D Ah. Maybes that's even better, i'll forget my old depressive melodies like radiohead, gorillaz etc. =^^=
It's women's day tomorrow!! OMG i just don't like this holiday so much :O Everyone grates me but im not a woman hey! o__0 I'm a girl and they shoud grate me on march 3rd cause it's girl's day! :O
Rrawr. Gotta buy some present for my mum^^

Those 'new school emo' girls are so annoying. How can they call themselves 'individual, non-formal' if there are millions girls who look alike? :D Try and turn on your imagination, stop copying each other, combine different styles, be like no other, use more colours, be cheerful! Let's fight against this new-century illness - depression! Let's be positive and creative ;D Stop think about other people as about nothing, communicate with others, never push others, never forget about your friends, start understand other people's feelings, help others as much as u can.
Say 'nya' to the world dammit, and let it be sun shining all over the planet! Kawaii 4ever! xD
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Well, i was going to greet everyone and just say 'Happy Valentine's Day'!
Though my BF didn't greet me today~ uhm...well...im not angry at him~ <3
Im almost finished 11th grade, getting ready to do State Exams :> Math's still not as good as i want it to be~ T_T
O'k, i can do it! :D

They piss me off( all my friends got some kinda 'winter depression'( troubles, despair thoughts etc., everyone in bad mood! They sit in their worlds, don't want to see me trying to cheer them up, to give them some support, say smth good. No! Their problems are above that! They just forgot one thing - that all our daily problems are nothing, and if u will think about it all the time those problems will just grow and it will be more difficult to get rid of them. But its more, MORE simplier to overcome it if u do it together! Its very important to forget about life's difficulties and just enjoy the life as it is sometimes!..
And im tired of playing the role of strong person. In fact im just little, foolish, vulnerable and naive girl( Im trying to be sociable and open to people to communicate with interesting persons. But i mean nothing for those people( and i want them to think about me as about human, not as a doll...T__T
Wanna cry.
But yet, i'll hide my weakness, smile and again will try to cheer my friends up tomorrow. Just because im so. So kind. Too kind.
Sorry everyone. Just need to express my thoughts.

But when i'm hungry, all people around me smell like food
Omg i should be isolated from society %)
Feed me ;D
Please :3

The Day After Tomorrow. Yes, it's reality. It will be a 'J-ROCK New Year's Eve Party'!!! Yeeeeeeaaah~ I've been waiting for it s long~ Tomorrow i'm gonna do a lil shopping around 'XL econom' and 'Athrium'...will look for some white pants, black puffy skirt and white ribbon...Plus for warm winter jacket and shoes :3 I want something colorful =^____^=
Dunno why, but my mood is being so cool recently )))
Although i need to do exams -____-''' Like chemistry, geography, literature and physics =( Ah~ One week for all this :o I'll die!
Nooo i must live (:

That was A Month :O
I was drunk first time in my life lol. Walked alot with anime-fans and some school friends, spent one night in Dima's house, went to see 'Karmen' opera, still visiting 'SchoolMoney' lessons, tired of study... But, now i need to concentrate on it even more, coz im changing school again, now to ex-sloe education to finish 10-11 forms in 6 months :o And thenn...state exam awaits me! Scary! :D Still thinking which university to go to..)
Ganbarou na! :D Oh yes, on 7 december i will take a 'Noryoku Shiken' examination! Please wish me luck!... Learn learn kanji~
Btw, i made a pic of Dima in my Neko-mimi :DD
He looks so funny xD

Everything's o'k ;) I wont bother him with my stupid love anymore (: First i want to become at least his friend :3
Aaah~ he shines so bright in my eyes~
xD Anyway, my favourite weather is going to end on this week ) It will be cold again.
Need to find light coat and some black high-boots...But maybe not light coat but warm jacket?...o.O
Aw~ clothes is my first problem, rrawr! xD
And then...i need to train my brain and study algebra and geometry more :o
Because i feel myself so dumb on algebra lessons x)
I wanna walk! But today i need to do so many things. Im a busy girl, yo :D

And again, i realized that 'love' is a feeling that comes and rules you only in first few days. Then definitely something bad happens, and sorrow comes instead of this 'love'. I experienced it already, but somehow i fell in 'love' with that person. But im still a little silly girl, no progress, im still stupid and naive. I think its better for me to live without that 'love' feeling at all.
I want to go somewhere very far from here...people here don't like me...they see me just as cute doll and nothing more. This f*ckin' russia D:
aw~
Okay. Calm down...today's a nice weather, why not to go in the center for a little cheerful walk and forget about this sad thing? (:
and dance, dance...no life without dance (^-^)v

That was kind of a hard september :o
Was getting used to the new school...
Tho i skipped it today lol...
I hav 2 new friends...
no, 3...no, 4...aw~
anyway, i have alot more than i had in previous school %)
And the teachers are good :3
10th form is very hard...
for example, i dont understand chemistry and algebra at all...x( and history is pretty hard to remember too :o
Grrrr. I'll do it. I must do it XD
+ i started dancing tectonik...im doing pretty well! ∩(^∇^)∩
Aaaand~ finally~ after 15 years~ im in love :o
lol .☆.+:＾ヽ(∇＾*)ｏ

1st September is cominggg....
It's so close!! Ah.
I need to wake up at 6:00 AM, coz now im going in the school which located very far from my house... It will be cold.
Okay, cheer up :)
Be shiny and happy.
Make beautiful eyes and cute smile. Make them love you. Rrrawr :)))
In the right side u can see my black&white picture...
I just cant post picture of me withot correcting lights in MOPM x)
I need a place with good lights to take good photos. Geez
*i want 'KIDS' official DVD T__T i loved this movie too much.
**in two or three days i will have my cute lil WaT DVD Collection+WaT Live Tour 2008 in .avi format!!
Yatta =^____^=
Im a fan. Yes. Shame on me :3

And again....summer passed by so fast :3 I want august once more :)
Though i need to prepare to school...i still dont have uniform xD Only skirt :D
this problem will be solved in 3 days i think....oh. It will be crazy time %) Plus i need to redye my hair...
And now i have digital camera :3 So some my photos coming soon...
And now im very tired and want to have a rest. Bye-bye =^___^=
*i started to listen 'Gorillaz' band again :) i liked their 2007 year release 'D-sides' :3

Its again very hot in here...Im melting T___T
But anyway all what i was doing this week was shopping and walking in the center of Moscow... I was trying to find some cute school uniform. But. I forgot that its Moscow >.> i could find nothing cute. Nothing pretty. Nothing good. Only glam and emoish xlothes...aww.
But there are also some good moments :3 I met two japanese boys in 'vkontakte' site :) Michio-san and Yuu-san. They are such good friends, plus they know some russian ^^ Never thought someone that cute from Japan could learn russian language xD
Ok. Laters )

I found 'Hyakume Fusagi' game on 'GeGeGe no Kitaro' site ))
It is so funny xD I played like for 1 hour... The highest i got was 'Kitaro' lvl
And this is the first which i got ) Click here to plaaay~~
Then i got Kitaro level xDD This game is fun :3
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Plus, i started Lineage2 again xD Now on PvP server, cause im tired of endless lvling and now im spending like 2 hours of my freetime to run over L2 world and kill some noobs %) Its good when theres nothing more to do x)
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One more thing - i dunno what to do on those holidays (
I think i'll do some shopping...
Then ask my father to buy a skateboard for me :3
Because i have one friend who promised me to teach how to skate )
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Aaaand~
my dear Hime-chan is baaack!
I expect many joyful days in the end of this boring summer :3  
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*I love 'Shibatora'!!! xDD Te-chan is a great actor!!'